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Ah. Here I am at North Park again. Don't let the smile fool you, I've visted it twice in the past month to calm myself down or "reflect"...yeah it's corny but I need it. Things have been busy, primarily as I was doing the centerpieces for a co-worker's wedding. That and all the Halloween activity has tired me out.

So...still trekking along with these below average levels. Next week it'll be two months since my Rituxan...and nothing. Still on the same amount of meds so at least there's some routine. I've begun feeling a little bummed out again because I'm not sure what else to do next from a personal standpoint. I may try and revise my diet again since I've been slacking, and I may also try and do more meditation and anxiety reducing exercises since the Holidays are coming up. Noticing before a panic attack sets in is something I've gotten a bit better at since I was first diagnosed, and I've reduced the number of episodes I have. I'll have to pay more visits to the forest.

I'm going to start brainstorming for winter activities (low-impact/low stress) that I can look forward to. I think a problem I'm starting to have, and a reason I feel myself regressing emotionally, is that every day all I have on my brain is this illness and how I'm feeling in regards to it. If I had something I could distract myself with maybe the winter won't be so bad.